It’s a Struggle – One I Seem to be Losing
When I started writing full time (September-ish), I effectively stopped a good portion of my constant moving around.
I broke my tailbone when Jeb was a week old, so for about 4½ years, I’ve looked for excuses NOT to sit down. I am almost always in constant motion, because sitting hurts and if I sit on something soft (like my couch), my legs will go to sleep. I assume the break did something to affect the circulation. Two years ago, an x-ray revealed that it’s still broken. Last week, I was in so much pain that I wanted to cry, and Gregg said I had bruising in my lower back like when it was fresh broken. I’m going to assume that this is something with which I will have to continue to struggle.
Either way, writing full time, six hours a day, and my constant motion ground to an abrupt halt.
Let’s couple that with the fact that I’m a smoker. Now, I haven’t smoked in about eight years. But, that doesn’t change the fact that I’m a smoker. Fifteen years ago, when I first started writing, every time I came to a stopping-what-do-I-write-next point, I’d light a cigarette. Now I find myself wanting to eat. I’ll be writing along and be STARVING despite the fact that I just ate an apple or a slice of cheese or a handful of almonds or a handful of dried apples.
Ceasing of constant motion coupled with a desire to eat constantly has resulted in exactly in what you would imagine it would result. I don’t have a scale, and I don’t have a full length mirror, so I have no idea how much weight I’ve gained. But, my wedding rings are tight, my clothes are tight, and we spent the weekend in a hotel that had mirrors on it seemed like every wall and I was faced with the very real fact that, even though I walk four miles a day, every single day, six days a week, I have gained a serious amount of weight.
I’m just frustrated by that. My diet is good, and like I said – I leave my house at 5:15 every morning and walk for a solid 4-mile hour.
At the hotel, in the fitness center, I was able to run about 3 miles of my standard 4 on the treadmill. I think running on a treadmill is a lot easier than running on the ground, but I’m going to have to do something different, because what I’m doing now isn’t changing anything. Or maybe it’s really holding back a massive weight gain and just a little is trickling in. Either way — something’s got to give.
I’m going to have to train myself to drink water instead of grab a snack when that oral fixation habit while writing hits me. And, I’m going to have to make myself get up from my computer at least hourly and either do some stretches or go running up and down stairs a few times – just to get some motion going.
Maybe after the holidays (because I’m smart enough to know that you don’t do any kind of focused weight loss right as Thanksgiving and Christmas are bearing down on us) I will do something with you guys and we can all focus on more motion and less weight in 2013!
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Consider switching to a standing up desk. I know this seems wacky at first thought but they are available, reduces many health risks, and might be a good solution on your way to a new health.
Oh, I feel your tailbone pain!! I have injured and reinjured my tailbone over and over in the last 5 years (falling down the stairs multiple times). I felt like my coccyx cushion was attached to my backside for years. I will pray for relief and healing for you!!!
In the meantime, can you cut out sugar and cut down on all grains? I had to do that for health reasons and am sticking to fruits, veggies, meats, and nuts, and increasing natural fats – real butter, coconut oil, meat fats. I wasn’t looking to lose weight, just be able to live my day to day life, pain free, fibromyalgia free, and migraine free. I ended up losing 35 lbs in 2 months. It took a lot of self control, but I just had to tell myself the food was poison to my body. (Easy to do when the consequence for eating the food was a migraine or a few days in bed with pain.) Just a thought….I obviously had a much more severe incentive to cut out those foods – and besides, who wants to cut out SUGAR at the most wonderful time of the year?!? :-)
I know everyone always had advice – so, you can take this or leave it, no offense taken here! :-) Kudos to you for all the work you’ve gotten done on your book, and keeping up with the daily living for your family despite the tailbone pain!! (Maybe a break is in order???) :-)
Blessings to you!
I’ll look into it – thank you!
I’m actually going to do a strict Daniel Fast type diet — no meat, dairy, only water to drink, and whole grains in serious moderation (like, allowing brown rice with dinner, but not eating leavened bread). When I fast like that, I lose weight. But, I’ve always done it for spiritual reasons and not health reasons. Gregg has convinced me to do it now, with him, until Thanksgiving, then stop. Then do it until we start traveling at Christmas, then stop. Then do it again for a few months after Christmas. He said waiting until after the holidays would just create more weight gained that I would want to lose.
He says all of this before during and after saying, “I love your body and I don’t need you to lose weight.” Which, is awesome, but I need to do it for me.
No offense! I’m so happy you replied!
Sorry for your struggle Hallee!! Something that my cycling teacher just mentioned in class on Monday. He was talking about different zones of exercise, what he calls conversational, long sentence and short sentence. He also talked about different heart rates. He said, essentially, that when people are walking they aren’t really burning much. Your heart rate has to get into a certain zone to actually start burning real calories. That’s not to say walking isn’t GOOD for you, but that may be why you haven’t lost weight despite all the walking. Maybe you can get a heart rate monitor? I’m sure the fasting will help too. I wish you luck!
You’re right. I think running instead of walking is what I really should be doing.
Haha! I love that right after that motivational speech, the “You might also like” shows pictures of “Scrumputous Cinnamon Honey Scones with Raisins” and “Fresh Peach Cobbler!” :)
What an awesome hubby!!!! Great advice, and so encouraging of you! Sounds like a fantastic fast. I do dairy free, too – boy do I miss ice cream!! ha ha! Good for you for knowing what will work for your body, and going for it. With God’s help, you can do this! :-)
I am with you, girl! My hubby also tells me the same thing, though. (We so blessed to have such great, supportive hubbies!! Thank you, God!) :-) I, like you, however, feel like I have to lose some weight….FOR ME! I have never been “tiny” in any since of the word, so I’m not expecting that, and I really eat pretty good (though I do like sweets). My biggest problem is I had gotten out of my exercise routine. I just know that I am not as healthy as I can be! I haven’t been able to be the best Mom/Wife that I know I CAN BE! Over the weekend I decided to change my routine and GET MOVING….EVERY MORNING and add more fruits/veggies to my diet, too! Just since Monday I have done just that! It is absolutely AMAZING how much better I feel and how much more energy (and patience) I have for my family. My muscles are sore, sure…but sore is OK. Reminds me I’m alive! ;-)
The fact that my jeans are already fitting better and I’ve lost 4 pounds already is a wonderful incentive to keep it up. I am DETERMINED to not fall back into my “lazy” tendencies again! (Extra sleep actually means feeling more tired, you know!) LOL
I wish you the very best of luck, too, Hallee. I’ll say a prayer for you each morning when I get out of bed and I’ll be looking forward to your upcoming update posts as well.